Are you ready?

I was reading “Act like a lady, think like a man-Steve Harvey”. He said that for a man to be ready to fall in true love and commit to a relationship he must first define who he is what he does and how much he makes.  I wandered “how do we girls know that we are ready?”  

You thought you were ready when you were a teenager having a crush on the guy next door. You made a story up in your mind because you just couldn’t wait for the real thing to happen. You covered your eyes in order not to see your lover`s reality.. And when you got to know him better, and saw all of his flaws. You either acted childish and said “I love him and I can live with this flaw” or acted more childish and said “I can change him”. This story keeps happening over and over again till you realize that he is not the one. And then you say “when will I meet Mr. Right?”

We girls are always searching for Mr. Right since we were little kids we always dreamed of our prince charming...  I was searching for mine too… until I discovered something… “I am not ready”. I am not ready to commit or to fall in love. I still don’t know what I want in life.  I am still learning, trying new things.  I don’t know whether I want to travel, to open my own business or to change my entire career. I am not ready to settle down and have my life decided. Unlike married or engaged girls who have it all figured out. I still need my time to figure out what I want in life, which plan I can fit in?  and that`s not a bad thing because before I meet my Mr. Right there`s a long surprising journey of me becoming the person I am supposed to be. I don’t have to jump to the end. Because remembering my first crush and how much I liked him. And remembering the girl who I used to be… I am not this girl anymore… I wouldn’t choose him now. There is a reason why he didn’t make it.  And since I want “Mr. Right” not “Mr. Right now”, I will have to wait untill I am ready. And then he will come along… I will just let life surprise me.

Not like the movies

If we were a movie…you would be my right choice…we would fall in love and we would go on life together. But we are not in a movie, we are in real life...so… not everyone gets happy ending.

And there she was, she fell in love… she didn’t understand why, but for some reason, she couldn’t take her eyes of him, for some reason she couldn’t stop thinking about him, for some reason she felt he was her security, her happiness and her dreams….

The story went on, and that feeling was growing day by day… the girl cried “help me!! I am totally in love with the guy…help me…I am trying to forget but it`s useless…tell me how to end that story”. The girl had no one to trust and to speak to except her best friend…who was thought to be a true friend.

The girl trusted her friend, she told her every secret of her heart…she told her how she was afraid to get hurt.

The girl went on her story…she thought everything was fine, the guy was so sweet….and the girl was pure, he meant the life to her…but she never knew that she was nothing to him .

The girl worked hard to change, she wanted to be the perfect for him, and she tried to get closer to his heart because she didn’t feel safe anywhere else. But what a surprise, what a smile could be on the face when you find the so-called lover, with the so-called friend?!....except the smile that hides tears and pain….the smile of a girl that couldn’t even cry… although she was screaming on the inside…she was afraid that he would hurt her, but she never thought that her best friend would …. She didn’t know who she would miss, her love, or her best friend.

The girl was so hurt; she didn’t think that she could survive. She thought that her life stopped and her world ended. But the story went on; the girl held on….her pains taught her how to forget…

She learned that life, not like the movies….it never stops at a point. No matter how cruel the moment is, it will pass. And no matter how much we wish that time can freeze in a happy moment, it doesn’t. Not like the movies, we can’t just show the credits and have a happy ending…

The power within

Once upon a time, there was a small happy family of a father, a mother and a baby daughter. The father was a great king and the mother was his queen. They lived in their beautiful castle and they couldn't be happier.

 But unfortunately, like any other story must go.. The big bad witch came to their kingdom, but the good king didn’t invite her in. she was very angry with him, so she threatened him to ruin the little girl`s life, she said that on the girl`s 16 birthday, she would touch a spinning wheel, which would make her sleep for eternity.. nothing could save her but the prince`s kiss, and that was the little girl`s curse.

The parents were scared to death; they tried to protect their daughter and to stop her form touching the spinning wheel. But no matter how hard they tried, the day came and the girl turned 16, and the misleading ways lead her to the spinning wheel. But you know what happened next? The girl said “No, I won`t touch the cursed wheel. I won`t lie down waiting for some prince to kiss me, i won`t let that witch bitch manipulate me”

The princess had the courage to protect herself and the power to stand against the bad witch, no matter how strong was the witch. She didn’t need a prince to save her; she didn’t need her parents to protect. She alone had the power to control her life.

Every one of us is the princess. We live in this life full of bad people who try to use us “The witches”, whose powers and strength differ from one another. And full of temptations, that attract us to do stuff we might regret after, that`s the “spinning wheel”.

Our parents are always trying to protect us, even if they have to isolate us from the society. But it doesn’t matter, because we can never escape the witches and the spinning wheels that are surrounding us all the time. And there`s always a prince, he doesn’t have to be on a white horse wearing a costume. But he can be a dream. Any dream that our minds create, and thinking of it helps with our pains. Just like pain killers. They stop the pain but they don’t really cure the wounds.

And in the end, the only one who was capable to stop the bad witch was the princess, just like we have to. We are the ones who have to stand for ourselves, protect ourselves form bad people, and keep ourselves away from sins. We can`t depend on our parents forever, and we can’t rely on a dream. It`s the power within each of us that can help us through this life against any spell or curse.

My fairy tale

I had never believed in love before I met you

But now I wish I never met you

Standing here not knowing where I am and where to find you

Wandering if my fairy tale would ever come true

I turn around, my heart is beating so fast

Is that really you? You are here, you came at last

You`re on your knees with my favourite flowers

You`re dazzling me with your secret powers

You catch your breath, you hold my hand

You say the lyrics of my favourite band

The sound of rain falling in my head

I opened my eyes, am I in my bed?

I wake up. It was one of my dreams

It`s just a regular night as it seems

I closed my eyes… listened to the rain

I wanted to sleep to see you again